Mom, I got Anxiety


Why is that we only give a shit about Mental Health after someone passes away or takes their life because of it. Can’t we just get it that it’s a real thing. “Mom, I got Anxiety” is a. Compilation of poetries which tried to convey the scenario of mental health India and how parents deal with it or better to say, ignore it. It’s a a mental sicknessin itself to tell your parents about your mental health problem. “You are not reading for a reason, Make something out of it”.

Amazon –

https://www.amazon.in/Mom-got-Anxiety-Parents-Mental-ebook/dp/B08BNCC3DM

Google Play-


https://play.google.com/store/books/details/Anurag_Madan_Mom_I_got_Anxiety?id=JKbsDwAAQBAJ

Apple Bookstore –


https://books.apple.com/us/book/id1519791538

Scribd –

https://www.scribd.com/book/466565246/Mom-I-got-Anxiety

Rakuten –

https://www.kobo.com/in/en/ebook/mom-i-got-anxiety

Barnes and Nobles –

https://m.barnesandnoble.com/w/mom-i-got-anxiety-anurag-madan/1137210660?ean=2940164378943

Every Other IIT aspiration

“Life set hai bro, is the biggest scam.’

~every other IIT aspirant.

I remember my first day at this coaching class of Engineering, and we had a session in a hall where every person just completed their vacation (few were studying during this time) and ready for the Head Teacher to give a short pre schedule of what life is gonna be. We were like okay, IIT sochke aay the, mehanat krege, jaaege IIT. MUMBAI/PAWAI ke niche to no sacrifice. I remember she asked to rise up to the students who got 90% above in 10std and I was not one of them, and I saw almost the majority stood up, this was not enough, she changed it to 95%, hardly few sat and rest were still, standing. This was the time the real breakdown started, My fucking very first day I was depressed, seeing other people standing.
The movie continued, gave the list of books we needed. Not even kidding it was of worth 10k and I till date, 2 years passed haven’t seen more than half of them. I swear, not even the topper of the class went through them all. So that’s the first scam the students appearing for JEE are pushed into.
There’s this energy after coming, like no matter how you came, parents’ pressure, girlfriend also opted for science, whatever, the first day I swear is the one where you are so confident and look upto your teachers and you have a feeling ki IIT, I’M COMING, like every student have this, this fades faster than the new Government’s new propagenda.    I was so confident the first month and by the end of second month I knew, lag gaye hai.
For me I can’t blame anyone, because my parents wanted me to continue with commerce or arts in the same School and like after reading this, you are already disappointed on me but yes, this was the scene. But I was rebel. I wanted to do science. Till 10th I was good at maths and science and really was fascinated by the subject. Little did I knew, coming here I was only taught how to solve numericals and mug up Organic Chemistry.
Organic chemistry is such a subject where you’ll get tons of comic. Teachers of organic chemistry are generally people who just gave up on life. This is not all true. I’ve seen good teachers too but in different coachings. Yes, this comparison is only the source of entertainment for next two years. Uski class me to ye hogaya. Unki teacher toh video se padhati. This shit is constant in this field.

Then you get into a phase, when you just want to quit, few do, who have chill parents or balls to do it. But most get stucked. I was one of them but can’t deny I was having fun. Teachers after certain point left us, disowned us and let us sleep, chat and do whatever we wanted until it didn’t affected the nerds.
And slowly time passes. Sorry, time flies like ANYTHING. Its first month and suddenly after hundred bunks, thousand fails, 2-3 new bad habits, a girlfriend (maybe) and the time of filling form comes.
The study I did on the day when forms got released, GOD. Everyone was nervous. Before this also we got many breaks in faces of bizzare motivations or PTMs, but this ,This was something different.
Then eventually the last month before exam, (FIRST attempt) then the last week and eventually a day before.
Fatt chuki hai. No other expression.
Studied nothing for 2 fucking years and so called hardwork of 2½ month will reflect.
And yeah did exam.
Results after 4-5 days on YOUR FACE.
60 percentile.
Happy? nah.
Proud? nah.
Gives a fuck? nah.
Parents? OH MY, YES!
TEACHERS? weirdly, don’t care, like really.

Then comes boards.

A student, literally is so tired With life actually is mentally dead by the time of boards. And teachers are also don’t give much shit about boards, IIT requires only 75 percentage.

THIS IS A TRAP

If you reading this prior to all this, boards are really important and FUCK JEE but don’t take boards for granted. I repeat please study for boards. Leave JEE. Fail at it. You will get a second attempt. But boards, atleast in India has worth. And aspirants often try to manage both but end up screwing both.

College/school Life

There’s nothing as such. Go for Viva, practicals and to collect admit card. And no memory as such.

Skills, (puking) nothing as such exists for our great teachers, it’s all about you and carbon. Nothing else.

Teachers

Bhagwan ka roop. I don’t know to be honest how to say about them. This is for sure there are some teachers that come and change your life like never before. But some teachers are so old fashion in matter of thoughts. They’ll stuff you with all the mess they know which might/not be true. But you as a decent student fucks you up.

“TEACHER bhi kaat ke chale jata hai”

You have to make yourself educated about world. No one would. And you. Know. What

BLAMING WON’T WORK. 

It simply will make you more miserable.
Don’t simply be BHAKTS of anything/anybody.

Think, you’ve got limited-time left to make a difference in world, in your life.

What if you changing path?

You were told at very beginning of your life. Take science because you can do anything after that. Your view is open to every other field. If you take commerce, you are bounded and restricted to change field.
But reality, kareke to dekho. Society maar degi. To perceive your dream in India
1. Take science and Study for JEE
2. Do MBA
3. Get married
4. Have kids
5. Send money to family
6. Start working towards dream if alive

It is cliche thing, when we see people doing things that are new to society norms. But when you really do that you understand how big of a thing it really is.
Don’t you think for a 16 year old to decide what he wants to do at 30 – 40 is a stupid thing. Like not everyone is sure about what to do.

You don’t even know what you’re going to eat in today’s lunch, but you know you can do this thing for the rest of your life.

It’s your life. Do things that don’t make you regret.

”Growing up and realizing that you’re trying to be good at the wrong thing willmake you regret every breath.”

Anything can be earned, but not Time,
Cliche but The truth.

Times were difficult. A student in JEE coaching centre is already so fucked up with pressure of coping up with the field and added responsibilities of so much other stuff.

Last message – Do whatever your heart says.

 
The fuck bro, my heart doesn’t say anything, toh job chhod du?

Whatever you doing, will end someday and you can start whenever you want.                Parents, friends and stuff are more of excuses you give to yourself                                        You just need balls to do things.
Hardwork/ smart work are second things.
First get balls to accept what you gotta do.

Doing things which you think you’ll happily struggle for .                                                      After all, works take a- third of your life.
.
It’s your Life, not anyone’s. You have to work, no one else would.

PS-
Is it difficult?
_ yes
Worth it?
_ definately

 

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The New Gen

The world of joy
The land of misery
Where we are toy
And memes our advisory
The world where real is lost
And virtual has cost
The place where win is abide
And giving up is suicide
The mighty, high is great
He gave mouth to lie
And eyes to deflate
People never have a clue
Where they’ll end
But often take Deja Vu
To stary and surrend
Akin to history
Where migration was for thirds
Nature warns time and again
To right us bastards
Botox on face
Cry burried deep
Shine teeth like a jerk
And thousand pile of creep
The world of joy
The land of weed
You’ll never get what you want
You’ll be blessed, of what you need.

First love

Had been a while
Since I felt for first
Never really knew
Would feel it till worst
Cheers to the time
Spent in you
Will greed for more
To have new
You are stupid
Enough make me mad
I really like to listen you
Good or bad
You never know
Where we’ll land
But for this time
Just hold my hand
Never really been so satisfied
As with your presence
Its nice to meet you
And later feel your assence
You are pure
That is rare
I just respect it
And wanto care
Had been a while
Since I felt first
You deserve so much good in life
To give you is my thirst.

You are too Scared :/

Hey you,

You are scared about the future
That you haven’t lived yet
And make wondering defeats
Which you never wanna pet

You are scared to make decisions
That will give you bad result
But its life and there’s no option
Other than behaving adult

You are scared
Scared to make choice
Cause weird thoughts confuse
Which you call two voice

You are scared about the truth
That you don’t wanna accept
Life will change when you do
But worried how to recept

You are scared that you are scared
That makes it more scary
That makes no sense
Which makes it heavy to carry

You are scared to be lonely
Thats makes you alive
And make you caring
And helps in strive

Hey you,
You are scrared to live different
Scared to accept change
Better how fast you overcome
And stop that strange

You are a coward
Who lives in his own rife
You are a dumbass
Wasting this beautiful life

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Life is Beautiful, If You Make It!

Sometimes we cry
Sometimes we grin
Sometimes we moan
Of all it had been
Passing every moment
We try to make it greater
Living each success
We attract many hater
Trying to figure things
We make mind a battleground
But groaning in pain
We avoid a tear sound
We collect memories
We live new each moment
Meeting people and classifying them
We share them everything we went
But sometimes in time
Your focus is lost
Getting everything once and burst
We are exhausted
In this time
We understand thing’s cost
And we learn a new lesson each day,
Which our life diary had embossed
Life is beautiful : )
If you make it
Everything is wonderful
If you have heart to feel it
We live in a world
Where miracles happen everyday
So no chance to give
And you’ll gift out a way.

Be Free, Be Happy!

Short is life
To make an impression
Stupid the person
Who live with expectation
Ignore the wrong
Do always right
Justice to all
Karma’s there to fight
Be a child
A thing, new day
Curious to know the world
And make animals out of clay
Learn when act big
When to become mature
When to forget shame
When to play mature
Life is short
To take many loads
Live it like a amuse
And break all boards
Life is only one
Make it BEST
Solve some issues
Beat the REST!